Monday, November 23, 2009
idk why i wanna blog eh, srsly alot of things keep hanging out my mind but idk what is it. It's just getting really fugg up, friends nope, family nope, girlfriend ? idk srsly.
I don't need anything but i still need something in my heart, it's empty. idk what i actually need nor actually strive.
HEART TELL ME WHAT U NEED TO FEEL U UP?
IT's empty sadly.
What does it mean to have sex?
Do i need it?
It's a SIN !
idk ?! sometimes it feels good, idk why i needed that idk.
IDK ! can u tell me the ans?
I've sinned, i've left myself in the wilderness. Remembered the days i actually said my sinners prayer, it's been 1 year plus. Where's the peacefullness ?! Where?
All i could say now, i'm sorry god, i've sinned infront of u, I'm ashamed to face u again. What could i do now, can't peacefully pray for my own.
WhoLetTheDogsOut?
4:49 AM
Sunday, November 22, 2009
It's sad somehow, long time never been blogging, getting pissed off with life sometimes actually. Simply i'm a christian but don't seems i'm been to church for countless of months, getting further and further with the presence of god.
Nothing counts, nothing worths. What i've been spending on it's just a waste isn't it?
Tsk, what can u do when your in the lowest part of your life? 2 choices, Run away or face the fact. I chose both depending on the situtation somehow.
Ready the fact that i'll stand down somehow. But there's still choices that can be made srsly.
Getting into relationship seems sucks, i hate being chain/locked up.
But loneliness can be felt when no ones is there for u don't u think?
I drank i drunk. Nothing helps. What helps is friends.
Trust me no matter how storng u're there's always weakness in your eyes.
WhoLetTheDogsOut?
1:49 AM
